37 weeks

Yesterday this pregnancy hit 37 weeks. This means Maggie is considered a full term baby. She could come any day now. I'm really trying to be patient and easy going about this open ended timeline. However, I can not stop thinking, "When is it going to happen?". When I'm at home I feel quite calm about the upcoming birth. At work, I'm more anxious and curious. It's hard to think about anything at work without thinking if the baby came now I wouldn't have time to finish this. I feel like my coworkers are prepared to pick up my projects when I start my maternity leave, but I don't feel ready to let go of my projects.

I have a doctor's appointment today. I go every week now. These appointments are very uneventful. Pee in the cup, check my weight and blood pressure, talk with the doctor for five minutes. It's getting to be monotonous. The new addition to the routine is a pelvic exam. Last week no dilation, and I'm predicting the same for this week. Makes me feel kind of down, like I'm not making any progress. I wish I could slow down, relax and enjoy the remaining days of pregnancy, but instead I feel like things should be moving along by now. Most preparations for the baby are complete. I still haven't packed the hospital bag completely, but I'm getting there. I feel like if the bag is waiting in the trunk of the car it will just sit there for weeks, but if I keep putting off packing I'll go into labor and have to pack really fast.